4 Things I'm Worried About

Worries...why do they have to ruin your day? I'm not saying everyday is a nightmare or anything, but teenagers suffer through a lot of stress. There are 4 things that bother me. FOUR BIG THINGS.

1) Which country I'll be going next

2) University

3) Crush

4) Studying

It's almost time for me to leave. I'm predicting I would leave Panama this year. But where? Hmmm... I honestly don't know. My dad wrote down two or three places in Europe and is just waiting for the result to come out. We've been waiting for MONTHS and yet, it is not announced. Whoever that takes care of these things really pisses me off...-__- Anyways, I really hope its somewhere good and a place where I can find my dream. I'm praying for it to be Sweden or Denmark. And yes, I've lived in Sweden before but who cares? It's an awesome country :) Usually, I won't really care where I go but this time I DO care. It's going to be my last country that I would live with my parents and I want to make wonderful memories that would remain in my heart forever.

University. I'm probably sure those who are reading this would think, "Why would you think about this when you're only an 8th grader? Isn't it too early?" My answer : No. I think the more you are prepared, the higher chance you will succeed. But the most important thing is, what are you going to be? You need to have a dream to study harder. I'm afraid to tell you, I don't know what my dream is. People go for the things they are best at or things they enjoy but I really don't know what I'm best at. Anyways, I hope God shows me the road I should pick for my future(:

Now the third thing. Crush, one that a lot of people struggle through. To tell you the truth, I fear of loving a person too much and end up being hurt. The sentence keep spinning around my head. "What if he doesn't like me?" It's stupid to like a person that doesn't like you back. But in the other hand, its hard to stop liking that person. I've said to myself that I would not like anyone because, like I said before, I fear that I would be heartbroken. When the guy has the same feelings for you, it was worth taking the risk. But if he doesn't, you would be drowning in your own tears. So basically it is, would you risk it or would you not? For me it's harder than solving a math problem. So what I'll do is follow my heart. And I'll just wait. If the person comes back to me, it is mine, but if it doesn't, we were not meant to be.

I'll stop from here since I'm getting quite tired typing all this. But surprisingly I feel better and my heart feels lighter than before :)

Thanks for reading(: