Today as usual, I went to korean school...Nothing really happened, but me just struggling with hard math problems and trying to catch up with the difficult korean worlds pouring out of the teacher's mouth. Yes, not the perfect day to rest or do anything...Can't I just fly out of this place and go somewhere where my stress just wash away? Cant I be someone who could at least rest in Satudays? It just felt as if there was someone controling me where ever I go like a kids motor car.
Yohana--the girl I told you that goes in my church and is the same class as me in korean school--had to come to my house since her mom couldnt pick her up since she was busy. We road the dirty yellow bus, one earphone on my ear, the other on hers. Music SHOULD calm down how I feel today, but I guess that just was impossible. Kids crying, shouting, yelling, fighting, laughing, fills the whole bus, their voice distracts me from listen to my music. Yohana, Yunjeong(my 3 year old sister) and I was the first one to get out, thankfully everything was peaceful at last...No more yelling nor screaming, just us and the warm air welcoming us.
We stepped inside the loby, up to 2nd floor where I live. Minjeong--my older sister, who does the most nastiest stuff--was the first to great Yohana. I let them play together, knowing Yohana would play along well with Minjeong...Weird right? Yohana, the girl in my house, mignt be the same age as me, but loves to play with my sister Minjeong, who is 3 more years older than her. They both went in Minjeongs room, and me...? Well, guess I just gotta deal with it. I lie in my bed, my eye lid feeling as if it got heavier than yesturday. My body immediately reliaxed, my flower white blanket, softer that it was. Time flies without me noticing....
"Yeji!!!You coming to the gim with us?" Yohana asked waking me up. I rubbed my eyes, the bright sun made my eyes harder to open.
"Sure" I said, putting on my sweater as I went to the living room to put my flip flop on. We all went down to the gim--Minjeong, Yohana,and me. We didnt do much. Just excersice, dance...And me getting insulted again by my sister. I got blamed for not putting the air on, I got insulted for talking to Yohana, I got sweared because I came along with them, I got insulted by doing the dance wrong. I mean, seriously, can everyone be perfect? Can they? Cant the people just try at least one thing new? Do you have to get insulted every 10 seconds for doing a little thing that really isnt a big thing? Do you?
I decided to excersice myself, not with Yohana, nor with Minjeong. I lied down on the sofa in the gim, being ignored as if I didnt exist in this world. Soon Yohana got to leave, she said bye, and I waved my hands...Now I think, what a day with insults, stress, blame, and being totally ignored by my "friend". Even though Yohana is my "friend" , I've never seen her talk to my sister so much and practially ignore me when I'm infront of her.
I wish so hard to cry, to yell like the kids in my korean school bus, to be the naughties human on earth. I wish so hard to tell them how I feel, to be strong to stand up for myself. But I've lost the chance. Grandma once said, time never goes back, never would it even with magic. Here I am, looking out the window, the sky looks grey today even though it didnt rain. Is it my mind thats grey? Or is it just that my regrets ruined my saturday? Tell me, what is it?
Wow, that doesn't sound like the ideal Saturday, I'm sorry that your Saturday was ruined, but there will be better days that will await you. So don't feel down, just look at the bright sides, and how much your other friends look forward to seeing you when school comes around. Just try to have fun! :)
ReplyDeleteI think you should summarize some parts because my eyes hurt from all the lines, and i miss some parts of your slice....Nice story though ;)
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