List of Confession

1) I love lettuce. I just love it. I like them in my sandwiche, or anywhere in my food. The way they taste and feel while you eat it is INCREDIBLE. I remember there wasn't any edible food in my house, and I started eating lettuce. Only that. No salt, no olive oil. Just plain lettuce.

2) Sometimes I wake up early just to piss my sister by saying, "OH MY GOD, WAKE UP! IT'S 7:30" when it's actually 6. Trust me, it works. It's a great method to piss anyone actually :)

3) I hate this person in highschool. It's a girl (No name mentioned). I dislike her...because, she thinks she's so cool just because she has "friends" who are somewhat popular. Even though I don't see her around often, whenever I get to see her, I don't know why but it makes me so angry. Basically, shes a wannabe. I bet nobody really likes her. She tries too hard. The pictures in facebook, wow...That's just speechless. She actually POSES for the picture, trying to ACT cute. In my opinion, I hate those kind of people. My sister, who's in 11th grade, HATES her too.


4) I don't like the sun so much. It BURNS me. I get darker...-.- I used to be a little bit pale in sweden, but now?!?!??LOOK AT ME!! I'm darker...Ugh, stupid sun...

5) Don't you have these days, when you don't feel like talking to your siblings? I do. I NEVER have a single day when my sister doesn't talk to me. I mean, please...Leave me alone...

6) I'm so sleepy right now that I'm closing my eyes while typing. And please excuse me if I have some spelling mistakes... You see, its not that hard like tyou think. And now I have to open my eyes because I have a feeling I've mispelled a ton of words.

7) I can't wait to go to the mall tomorrow with Jaye!!! I've got so much things to buy!!!

8) I've always wondered, why is the Mcdonald when people keep saying that there is alot of obese people in the world? They are complaining about how bad and unhealthy the foods in Mcdonald are, when they don't DO anything about it.

9) Do you know, thats it's not a secret if you say, "Hey, don't tell anyone I told you this. This is a secret" Why? Because secrets aren't meant to be told to nobody. So if you say a secret to someonee, it ISN'T a secret. But don't worry. I do that A LOT :)

10) Yay!!! Finally I'm in number 10!!!That's when it hits me. I thought I was done with english homework, when all of a sudden, I remember : Wordly Wise Test...-.- Darn it.

Lots to Confess

P.S= This Confession is my longest Confession ever...

1) I LOVE Confession Tuesday. It's a day when you can confess things and makes you feel a whole lot better.

2) I HATE it when my older sister can say everything she wants to say to me(including insults) and I can't. I remember once I got so mad, I actually attacked her with words and ended up with a hard punch from her. I have to say, she gets so pissed off when I just say "shut up" , when she's the once who says much harsh words, and I deal with them and don't punch her.

3)I HATE it when I find seafood inside my food. At first, I would serve myself a big plateful, when all of a sudden, I see this white, weird sea creature in my food. That's just nasty. So then I would have to give my plate to someone else in my family, and end up eating bread...-.- (This happens to me A LOT)

4) I have to admit, I eat very much. Very much as in really A LOT. I would keep eating and eating and I don't understand why I don't get fat!?!?! I mean, is there something wrong with me? Am I unhealthy??? My sister used to call me "Pig" because of two reasons. (1) I ate like a pig, (2) pig in korean rhymes with my name, Yeji. I used to get so pissed because of this, but I grew out of it.

5) Why are korean moms so worried about studies?!?!?! Can't I have a break for once in my life? Why am I not allowed to go to the movies often and have to be home studying all those weird language and those complicating math? Why can't I go shopping once a week? Why can't I watch T.V with Dad at night? WHY? Those Americans, Latins, and Europeans go to parties, shopping and do whatever they want but why can't I? I seriously with all my heart, hate it that asians education is so stricked. I HATE IT!!!!

6) I don't really enjoy eating so much sweets. When I get candies from parties, I eat a few, like 3 or 4, but the rest, I put them in the refrigerator. After some days, I would remember the uneaten candies. I won't be bothered to eat them so I just throw it away. This might sound weird, but I enjoy eating food than candies. Don't ask me why, because I also don't know.

7) I have another nickname. One that Mrs.Meadows calls me. Lucy Liu. I dont know her that well. But still I find it intersting and funny, especially the Bruce Lee part. Hahahaha =)

8) I love it when its raining, thundering and you're inside your covers, sleeping, the lights are all off and you're just there, listening to the rain pour down to earth. It's just WONDERFUL.

9) I'm not embarrassed of being Christian. I love being Christian. Why would you be embarrassed? If you are embarrassed then you aren't Christian. I thank my parents that I got to know God ^^

10) When there is a big scary test coming, I always pray to God. And I'm being totally honest, but It seriously works. I prayed super hard for the map test, and I was so surprised that I improved a lot and I got 256 for the math score. Believe me, God is real.

11) I've always wondered...Who is my soulmate? I wish I had this talent to know my future.

12) I adore comments. Who doesn't? I bet there is people who are waiting for comments right now. So people, COMMENT!!!

13) I love being home alone. Best time to sleep, listen to music out loud, watch t.v, eat, and sleep again...

14) ...Whoa...I wrote this much? Jeez, I really did have a lot to confess ^^. Anyways, though I still have a lot of things to confess about, I'll save it till later and end here today.

Confession Tuesday

I am not going to like a guy. I know it would take a while to get use to, but I'm going to try my best. These days, I realized that if you secretly like a guy, the only thing that gives you is a second of happiness and the rest is pain and hurt. Some of you guys could think I'm out of my mind, but if you are in my shoes right now, you will understand. Liking a guy, makes you think of him all day long, you become self-concious, and you cannot concentrate on other things.


The person who was once in my heart, is slowly starting to disappear. I try to think of other things-- a funny movie, my bestfriend, and what I will do when I come home. I'm afraid I will have a broken heart if I like a guy. I don't look at his face, I don't look at his direction, and I talk to other guys to take my mind off him. The love you get back, last just a second, but makes your heart beat so fast you're out of breath. But the pain and hurt you get, has no words to describe it. It feels as if you are drowning in the big waves, pushing you deep inside the dark, cold ocean. I don't want to struggle anymore longer. The pain I had is so much, I can't even bare it. I don't think I'm ready to experience it again. I need to wait for my heart to heal.

In my grade, almost every girl has a crush. Or thats what I'm guessing. If you tell me to seperate the people into two, I can. People who are happy because of love, and people who are sad because of love. Surprising, but its true.

So yeah. Thats what I want to confess today. I'm not saying I am going to hate guys, but that I will not like a guy as in have a crush on him. But instead, I want to be a great friend to everyone, including guys, and be the happy, friendly Yeji, I used to be.

I Love Spaghetti

I love spaghetti. All Italian foods are amazing but spagetti's my favorite. I always order spaghetti in every restaurant I go to. You might think, "Don't you get tired of them?" Well, no. I never do. I wouldnt mind if I ate spaghetti all three meals. Thinking of it, already makes my mouth water.

The best spaghetti I've ever ate so far was in Miami, at Dolphin Mall. Oh my God, Im getting hungry. The golden cheese sprinkled on top on the beautiful red sauce and spaghetti noodles. It melts in my mouth, the wonderful taste pervading. I regret not getting a second serving, but oh well, there would be better ones in the world, wouldnt they?

My sister calls me a spaghetti freak (I think I really am). But how am I suppose to stop my love towards spaghetti? Impossible. Never. When Im an adult, Im going to go to Italy and try the REAL spaghetti. I'll see if what people said is true. If someone dared me not to eat spaghetti for a month, I bet you I'll lose in a week (Seriously).

I better stop from here, or I'll end up in the kitchen shouting, "Mom! Make me spaghetti!!!"

I Hate Mosquitos

Today, I want to confess that I hate mosquitoes. The way they buzz into air, the way they look, gives goosebumps on me. And of course, being bitten my one...This is one of the reason why I dont enjoy being in warm countries. BUGS are the problems. Mosquitoes are the worst.


Here I am, typing and Im already bitten by one. I have the urge to scratch them, but I know that wont help. And the weird thing is, I dont see them!!! Where on earth are they??? They are like these invisible creatures that just bites you and go. And leaves you with the whole day scratching it...


Do you know what is the most common thing people suffer from? Yes, you're right. Mosquitoes...


Sometimes, I wonder why God made mosquitoes when the only thing they do is make people sick. They dont do no good. Just biting you and leave.


Do you know how annoying it is when a fly buzzes in your ear while your sleeping? VERY ANNOYING. It bothers your sleep and you just want to kill that stupid thing to stop buzzing and for it to go away.

I swear if there wasnt any mosquitoes in this earth right now , I would be typing this in PEACE.

Summer

People who likes all the season, people who don't mind living in a hot country, I wish I was one of them. Me? I don't like warm countries, nor summer.
Summer-the weather most people enjoy, the weather that brightens up peoples heart- has never been a pleasing weather to me. Sweaty, sticky, sun tan, smelly, burnt...Not the way I like it. What about Panama? To be honest, I don't like this country that much. I've always wondered , "Why can't every country have all seasons? Why didn't God make it like that?" Then I realized, things can't always happen what you expect it to be.
I've always blamed my dad for choosing to come to Panama, how much I cried. I remember I lived in Sweden, Stockholm. Every peace of my life, every second of my life, it was like magic. Cool weather, snow, nice fresh breeze, nature surrounding me, generous people, I've always felt free, as if my chain that was holding me, broke.
I'm not telling you that I HATE summer, but countries with all summer, I can't stand living in those countries for more than 3 years. I'd get sick, tired, exhausted. I guess thats just how I am. Yeji. That simple girl. Its me, and I can't stop from being who I am. The girl who loves cold weather but hates being sweaty under the sun.

Seafood:(

I've never liked seafood since I was little. The look of it, the smell of it, always grossed me out. I remember in Korea, I was at my grandparents house and we had seafood for dinner. The alive small looking octopus legs were cut into many little peaces, as they move and twist from the white plate. I stared. Grandma had one ready for me, already in her chopstick, moving like a worm.

"Yeji, try this. Its very delicious" She said joyfully. I hesitated. After deciding that I was going to give it a try, I opened my mouth, and in it went. Sticky, gewy, slimy. It stuck on my tongue like glue, and that instant I threw up. Tears exploded from my eyes. From that day on, I've never dared any seafood in my mouth. And of course, never the octopus.

People think korean like seafood, and yes it's true. They expect Koreans, no actually Asians to like seafood. But what I think is that people are different and for me, I dont like seafood. In fact, I hate them.

Sushi, one of the most popular seafood that people like, well I've never tried one. Surprised? Please, dont be. It's me, and I cant change who I am. I would be me forever, the girl who hates seafood.

Confession Tuesday: Over Exaggerating People

Today I want to confess that people who over exaggerate kind of bothers the person who is watching him/her. Many people may seem its just a way of expressing how you feel. Yes, indeed I agree but if you go too far( over exaggerating too much) , it annoys the people.

Ona-- a girl I knew from my sweden school-- used to overe exaggerate all the time, like it was a habbit!!!People sometimes do laugh along with the person who is over exaggerating(including me) but that doesnt mean they should do it all the time. There is a line where you should not cross, so that you wont make anyone angry and cause a fight with it. I didnt like those kind of people because sometimes I want to have a peaceful day but who knows when a person would over exagerate and ruin my day?

I'd use to just keep quiet looking at a person who would over exaggerate and juat thought she was out of mind only in my heart. I wouldnt say anything to her; no complains or I would never argue. But I still remember that it bothered me in the corner of my eyes.

Some of you people might know exactly who the person is, but just please dont over exagerate too much. I mean yes I do over exagerate as well, but I be careful for someone to dislike me because of my loudness.

I Hate Racist

Do you know what kind of person I really hate? Not a back-stabber, not a betrayer. but a racist.
It always bothered me. Especially in this school: Balboa Academy. I'm not insulting this school or anything but I never had those feeling about racist. I just hate them. They know nothing about you. Nothing...They tell they hate Asian and they know nothing about Asians. I mean what did I ever did to them??Maybe other might have, but not me. If they are mad at a Asian person, then they should go fight with them but not me. They have no right to insult a person that is totally Innocent!!
Reading this, some people might feel my pain, and some might not. Look, everyone has to be treated equally no matter how different you look or the different skin you have. We breath, we have hands, we have heart, and actually we are the same. So where ever you go, don't be a racist!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why Doesn't She Mind Her Own Business?!

Do you know what really bothers me these days?Well it's when my eldest sister never minds her own buisness! People that has older brothers or sisters might feel my pain...
Whenever I am doing Facebook in my freetime, she would tell Mama that I'm not studying. Right there is when I want to kick her out of this world. I mean I can handle all the things she does mean to me but not when she is minding MY buisness!!!NEVER!!Also she would act as if she is mumbling, and say I'm stupid, and that I get 'F's! Does she even know what she is saying? I hate it wheh she mumbles to herself. If she wants to mumble, go somewhere else rather than my room!!!
I still remember when my sister would go on youtube and watch movies, when she was suppose to study! I never say anything. See? I am not minding her buisness! That's her life, not mine!
I sometimes think, does younger sisters get to say their own opinon about something? Or is it only the eldest who says whatever they want? I want to go up to my sister and say she can't say I'm stupid just becuase I am doing the internet. But I don't dare because I know what would happen next.
What I am telling you guys right now is that the eldest sister /brother has to mind their own business and don't leave a stressful day to your younger sister/brother.

Something that really bothers me...

There is somethng that always bothered me. Why does people look at a person on how they look? Why do they depend on people like that? Why?
I always watch someone getting insulted by how they look. Sometimes I want to tell them to look at the person's indside. Their heart is important than the outside. I sometimes wished to tell this infront of their face, I sometimes wished they atoned. I sometimes wished they wouldn't depend on people like that.
"The world is like that"Mama would say. But still I hate it. More than me getting insulted. Why does my inoccent friends have to be looked in a way like that? why?
This is what really bothered me and still does.