S.O.L # 31 Best Day:)

Went to the movies

We watched The Book of Eli

Fighting was scary

But Eli went brave and tough

I guess I'm not bored today!!!

S.O.L # 30 Worries...

Today, as you guys know is ....Tuesday. Yeah yeah, you guys must love Tuesdays, and I would too, if only there wasnt a bunch of worry in me.

Tomorrow, in our church the youth group(including Minjeong and I) were going to the movies to watch The Book of Eli at 4:00 in multiplaza. I really so much want to go but I'm not so sure because I dont think my mom would let me and stuff. Plus! Sarah wants a party in her house right after the movie and that I'm 10% sure if I could go or not...You might wonder why I want to go to the movies so much and go to Sarahs party, but thats just because I dont want another boring day ahead of me. I mean won't you feel like that as well? Being outside with your friends is WAY better than being stuck up in your house, nothing to do.

So yea, thats about it with my worry. I know I'd be the most unhappiest person on earth If my mom doesnt allow me to go to the movies. Seriously I really would. I'm guessing the only way to make it come true is ask God to help me and just hope it would come true!!!

S.O.L # 29 How to Train Your Dragon

I still remember the movie Sarah, Susana, Yohana, Minjeong and I watched yesturday. It was called, How to Train Your Dragon. Well today I decided to watch it again in the internet in english.

Some people who HAVE watched this already, would know what I'm talking about. And people who HAVENT watched this, well I recomend you to watch it some day. Dont ask me why because this isnt no movie that would just waste your time If you see the dragon names "Toothless" (God, I love that name for some reason:P Sooooo funny) you would obviously say "awwww".

When I was done downloading the movie into my dads computer, I began to watch it. It was obviously more easy to understand and my favorite part was when the black dragon and the boy was together. I remeber I cried in the movie theater at the very last part when he lost one of his foot. The movie ended very soon, which it did kinda feel weird because it didnt in the movie theater.

In my opinion, I really think this movie should have earned a ton of money and really it deserves it. I'm not the person who would cry over for a dragon and all those comic stuff but THIS is different. It really surprised me that it was well shown and once again, I loved the dragon sooooo much!!! Now I think of it, what would happen if all of us had a dragon as a pet? Difficult I guess but still the wish of having a dragon pet like this one expecially, never leaves my heart<3

S.O.L # 28 I've Changed My Mind

We arrived in Sarah--the girl with 2 younger sisters who goes to our church--decided to play with us today after church finished.

We began playing volleyball(which I sucked at), but tried my best to do good. The weird thing is that when we did a mistake, they laughed their butt off. Weird huh? But of course I laughed along as well because their laughter really makes me laugh as well. Susana--the 2nd daughter , about 2 years older than me-- started tearing up because of all those laughs.

The ordered food arrived, and we finished it in about 15 minutes. Fast eh? Well that was how much we were hungry I guess:P Sarah asked me why I didnt show her my wound hand last time, and said that really hurt her feelings. I told her I didnt want people looking it with disgust, and that It wasnt a pretty sight. Thats what started our conversation. We began talking about me and Minjeong's relationship, how offten we fight. Tears just rolled down my cheeks, of all those swears and stress I had for Minjeong. Minjeong--who was in the conversation as well--looked at me with weird eyes and just went out the room. Sarah and I kept talking, of how I should try to respect her and how she is also stress. Now that I think about it, I guess she really would have been. With those sisters nagging her, taking care of Chloe, and all the colladge studies...

Now Im home, thinking of what I did to Minjeong...I realize I hadnt done good to her so much and how much she needed respect. It weird me saying this, but I havent been a nice sister all these years...I've changed my mind. I would respect my sister and never talk to her back from now on!!!!

S.O.L #27 What a Day...

Today as usual, I went to korean school...Nothing really happened, but me just struggling with hard math problems and trying to catch up with the difficult korean worlds pouring out of the teacher's mouth. Yes, not the perfect day to rest or do anything...Can't I just fly out of this place and go somewhere where my stress just wash away? Cant I be someone who could at least rest in Satudays? It just felt as if there was someone controling me where ever I go like a kids motor car.

Yohana--the girl I told you that goes in my church and is the same class as me in korean school--had to come to my house since her mom couldnt pick her up since she was busy. We road the dirty yellow bus, one earphone on my ear, the other on hers. Music SHOULD calm down how I feel today, but I guess that just was impossible. Kids crying, shouting, yelling, fighting, laughing, fills the whole bus, their voice distracts me from listen to my music. Yohana, Yunjeong(my 3 year old sister) and I was the first one to get out, thankfully everything was peaceful at last...No more yelling nor screaming, just us and the warm air welcoming us.

We stepped inside the loby, up to 2nd floor where I live. Minjeong--my older sister, who does the most nastiest stuff--was the first to great Yohana. I let them play together, knowing Yohana would play along well with Minjeong...Weird right? Yohana, the girl in my house, mignt be the same age as me, but loves to play with my sister Minjeong, who is 3 more years older than her. They both went in Minjeongs room, and me...? Well, guess I just gotta deal with it. I lie in my bed, my eye lid feeling as if it got heavier than yesturday. My body immediately reliaxed, my flower white blanket, softer that it was. Time flies without me noticing....

"Yeji!!!You coming to the gim with us?" Yohana asked waking me up. I rubbed my eyes, the bright sun made my eyes harder to open.

"Sure" I said, putting on my sweater as I went to the living room to put my flip flop on. We all went down to the gim--Minjeong, Yohana,and me. We didnt do much. Just excersice, dance...And me getting insulted again by my sister. I got blamed for not putting the air on, I got insulted for talking to Yohana, I got sweared because I came along with them, I got insulted by doing the dance wrong. I mean, seriously, can everyone be perfect? Can they? Cant the people just try at least one thing new? Do you have to get insulted every 10 seconds for doing a little thing that really isnt a big thing? Do you?

I decided to excersice myself, not with Yohana, nor with Minjeong. I lied down on the sofa in the gim, being ignored as if I didnt exist in this world. Soon Yohana got to leave, she said bye, and I waved my hands...Now I think, what a day with insults, stress, blame, and being totally ignored by my "friend". Even though Yohana is my "friend" , I've never seen her talk to my sister so much and practially ignore me when I'm infront of her.

I wish so hard to cry, to yell like the kids in my korean school bus, to be the naughties human on earth. I wish so hard to tell them how I feel, to be strong to stand up for myself. But I've lost the chance. Grandma once said, time never goes back, never would it even with magic. Here I am, looking out the window, the sky looks grey today even though it didnt rain. Is it my mind thats grey? Or is it just that my regrets ruined my saturday? Tell me, what is it?

S.O.L #26 It Feels Like Yesturday

Everything looks like yesturday. The day when you came up to me, helping me through Balboa Academy. The day when you would sit next to me in wolf room, both sharing our days with worries and news. I drop my hard bag on the dirty rug. The normal place where you sit, gets my attention, looks empty as ever just like it was in my heart when you told me you had to leave.

Ashini, are you in Denmark meeting new friends? Is your life over the rainbow singing songs? Or is your life under the sea, surrounded my darkness, unknown faces, problems you got to face all your self? Im here, waiting for you to come, but time never goes back does it? You're laughter, your voice, which always cheered me up, and always made me feel stronger, is no more there... The bellrings, but yet you're still not here. The day you would always be walking next to me, the day you would always tell me your problems while we walk up the stairs, isnt there anymore. New friends replace your spot, and you...Well to them you might be a hidden treasure. But I've found it. The treasure, the present God had sent me. You, the treasure, the gold, is part of my life, filled with precious memories that hasnt yet excaped from our heart.

Lunch time comes, but yet you're not there. Ashini, are you in your new school, with marvolous friends doing the same thing you've done to me? All those sharing, all those jokes? Or are you sitting there in the cold seat, staring at your friends, thinking they're nothing but back stabers?

You-- Who was my sheild--protected me all this time. You, the only friend I had, still keep in touch by emails.

School ends, but yet you're still not there. Is the future still telling me you're never going to come back? Is my friends telling me to that you got to get over with it? Is the wind whispering in my ear that you are miles seperated from me? Your laughter, your smile, your jokes, its still not here Ashini. Are you really gone forever?

The sky is blue like I saw in Sweden when I went to the park, a fine day to play. I come home from school, Mom hands me an envelope. No envelope ever comes to me, never since I was little. I open it, and just share and share at the red card. A card from Ashini? I brush through the words you wrote, tears just running down my cheeks like a fountain not locked tightly, waiting for you Ashini, to come lock it. Ashini--my best friend, who promise me that we would always be friend no matter how old we get--is in Denmark, but yet our bound that is so tight and impossible to cut, is still there, waiting for some day, maybe when we are old, to find each other.

S.O.L # 25 What Are Friends?

Have you truly thought of the word friends? Is a friend who you can just chat with and make you company? Is that the friend you always thought it was? Tell me, was it? Or is it someone who just makes you seem cool because you have a lot of friends? Tell me which one is it? I'd say none of them. They arent even called your friends, but more like a stranger to you.

Nobody here has a perfect friend because no one is perfect!!! Doesnt some of your closest friends expecially have some parts you dont like? But does that mean you have you insult them and gossip and make bad rumors about them? For me, yes not every friend is perfect and I do have some parts I dont like about them. But I realized that sometimes, you got to understand them because they dont have to same personalities as you and they arent the same like you are!!!

And sometimes, your friends end up like enemies and sometimes your enemies turn into one of your best friend. I guess thats how it is. Friends, enemies...I better stop here for today:)

S.O.L # 24 Should I?

Have you ever did something and regret it, like a lot? Im guessing everyone has at least once in their life. Well for me, there is something I do regret. I joined Girl Scouts a few months ago because Tiffany--my friend who goes to girl scout--told me all about it and siad how much fun it was. And yes, I really wanted to join. So here I am in Girl Scout, eager to get out of this thing.


Why? Well, its not like its SO important and I really dont like to stay after school. I mean, it isnt so boring but I guess I can use my time studying or in my house taking a nap rather than going to girls scout. In my opinion, the Girl Scout in one words are just going camping and all those stuff. I regret so much for joining and have ALREADY paid...dang it...Should I tell the teacher I want to quit? Do I have that much courage? What if she says I have to wait 1 more year to end this boring girl scouts? ...Question just keep coming up to me, really stressing me out.


I had girl scout today, and Im REALLY exhausted...Should I tell the teacher? Should I?

S.O.L# 23 Life Says Obsticles Are There For You to Learn

Sometimes there is time when you want to cry, when you want to run away from your worries, when you just dont want to be on earth. Worries, sadness, education, stress, insults, friends, just everything is on your shoulder, pushing you down, making you harder to move on with your life. For me, well let me say everything really does bother me.

Education? Yea, I hated it since I touched a pencil for the first time of my life. Collage, studying math and english harder, S.A.T, everything...I just want to run away somewhere no one would find me and forget about those things...Havent you felt like that before? Im in 7th grade, 5 more years till colledge. I can literally feel the sress piling up in my head.

Insults? Friends? It had bothered me a whole bunch, mostly about friends but oh well, I guess I got to use to that. But that doesnt mean I am TOTALLY fine with it...I've got times when you just dont understand your friend and if they actually ARE your friend. Insults, to me is something I hate the most. Insults come from gossip, and gossip comes from people and it just starts stressing in the spead of light. Thats how life is. Obstacles, dealing with it, obstacles, and more and more you have to face. But later you learn, you atone your punishment, your sin, everything.

Yes, of coures this is a very weird S.O.L you've ever heard, but cant I just pour out my stress in this sol? Cant I just make my stuffed heart empty by telling you guys this? Cant I? Every parent are always like "Education education education....study study study work work" People, just leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!!Sometimes, I just want someone, maybe a fairy, to give me 3 wishes. I dont believe in fairies and never did, but today, I wish it did. I would say my 3 wishes, and one of them would defenetely be about education, trust me it would!

S.O.L 22 A Friend Whose Going to Leave Soon...:(

I've always had to meet new friends, and leave friends ll my life. Yes, its sad I know...Since I move to countries alot mostly always after 3 years, I can never have a friend who I can talk to all the time...Ashini, remember her? Ashini--the quiet girl who has a pure heart--was my best friend, but left her old self in Panama and went to a far country, Denmark. Yes, I still talk to her;sometimes in phone, fb and in emails.

But...but...someone, who has been my friend since 6th grade and has always been there for me and entertained me whenever I was bored, said she was leaving in 3 months, saying she wouldnt ever be back after the break...Her name, is called....is.....is...Nysha...Would the misery start after shes gone? Would I feel like the worlds empty without her? Everything looks black, like the time when Ashini said she was leaving to Denmark forever. Even though, I had to leave my friends, that doesnt mean it was easy.

Who would leave next? Luciana? Mari? Who? Friends who leave, friends who stay, friends who I havent seen in ages, would still, and always would be in my memories, no matter what happens.

S.O.L 21 Everything Erased

I actually wrote my S.O.L. before but guess what??It deleted since the stupid internet was turned off with me not noticing it did..Well, I guess I would just write somthing simple today...

What about an acrostic poem on " Everything Erased?" Doesnt sound so bad. So here it goes...

Everything I wrote on todays sol erased

Very stupid??No no no, internet closed down!!!!!

Easy, write it all over again

Really?

Yea, I would've if I wrote a little but guess what?

Todays S.O.L was wrote with effort

Hate to even think of writing it all over again

Isnt it a pain when something you wrote just got deleted?

Not good of course

Going to think of another way then...hmmmm....

Every way I think of is to do a poems.

Right!!!Why didnt I think of that before?

Acrostic poem sounds amazing!

So easy and not alot of work to do

Even though it may sound easy, but seriously, what should I write about?

Doing this? Writing about "Everything Erased?"Not so bad...Well, lets get starting~~~

S.O.L # 20 I Cant Ever Forget Today

All I can say is that today was just like a dream and just so good that I dont think Im ever going to forget this day. I want to share you my day because I think I just have to tell you how it was and tell you how I felt. So, here it goes...

I arrived in church, greeting everybody, as I walked to the room where we praise God, finding a seat. We started with prasing God. Justin--who is my pastor--told us to love your enemies and pray for them. In my opinion, I think thats just impossible but I guess thats what God wants us to do. But I agree with one thing. Justin told us that our face is made similar to Gods face and that if we insult them, its like us insulting and spitting at God. We praised God for 1 hour and then like we planned, went to the soccer field behind Balboa Academy.

It wasnt so sunny, just perfect. We splitted into two groups and in my group were--Yohana, David, Jae Won(Jay Won, please dont pronounce the "J" "Y"), a teach at school,and Won and of course me. The deal was the losers to buy Ice-cream for the winners tomorrow(Sunday). My eyes cofused on the ball, and saw it coming towards my direction.

"Yeji, look!!!!!!!The ball is coming to you!!!!!!!!!!!" Yohana shouted warning me to kick it to the goal. I kicked it, and fail!!!!!!!!It past my feet. This kept on happening as if oil was in my shoes and our team was loosing. I saw no hope , no nothing but just that stupid team laughing for joy because they were winning. I was near other teams goal, praying for me to score at least one goal. The ball came to me like the speed of wind, and there I was, my legs flew up, kicking the ball to the goal.

" GOAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I heard my team shout giving me tons of high fives. But something that really surprised me was that the other team also said " Great Job" My heart felt warm, and proud of couse. I realized that the other team had a pure heart and wasnt all like " I've gotta win this!". The game went on, and there was one break and kept on going on and on and on. It was 14 : 13. And the game was up till 15 and we only scored 13. Hope started to faid, but I tried thinking positive . I knew that if a girl makes a goal, we get 2 points.

" Yeji!" I heard Won yelling, as I saw the ball coming towards me. He passed it to me and BOOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!I made a goal and it felt so good and proud because WE WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Everyone came uo to me, saying " I've improved a whole lot"I knew God helped me win and makes goals but most of all, I thank my wonderful friends we passed the ball to me even though I wasnt good.

We decided to play basketball next, and all I could do was just watch them play since my hand were still injured. They were amazing and way better than soccer. Basketball finished in 20 mintutes and we all went to Paitilla, Macdonalds for hamburgers and other stuffs. I ordered chicken hamburger and it tasted great!!I chatted with my friends, wishing so much I'd stay longer but people started leaving so I called Dad to pick me up. It was 7: 30 and yes, It was dark. Justin , the teacher, Yohana,Susana waited until Dad came and I said thank you and that today was awsome and they smiled:)

Im writing this S.O.L kinda late but I just loved today so much !!!!!!!!1The people, were nice to me and still loved me no matter how bad I was in soccer and cared about me so much like my family. I love my youth group friends in church and want to bless them with all my heart:)

S.O.L # 19 Everything with Right Hand....

The pain in my hand still hurt...the pain never going away...Im not sure how but stil I past the difficult day with my left hand hurting nonstop...
Now Im home, doing EVERYTHING with my right hand...It may be easy for you guys but trust me, being a left hand person who does almost everything with her left hand is HARD...

Normally, I'd come back from school and run to the kitchen for some snack. But today wasnt "normal" to me. I took my time putting the healing cream on(which didnt even help it heal). I still put it on, wishing it would work. The pain from my left hand felt as if someone had held my hands really tight, not letting blood pass. And actually I'd be ok, if it happened once it a while but it happened every second and I felt it. I tried ignoring it, but my eyes kept looking at my injured left hand.

I went to the kitchen, and grabbed a clean plate with my right hand and opened the refrigerator with my right hand and got a small snack. Here I am, actually sufering to just take one bite of my food...I pray for this horrible "left hand" nightmare to stop and the pain to actually calm down a little and for it to heal tomorrow real fast because I love Saturdays and who would want a day all messed up just because of THAT? I guess I should stop this S.O.L for today and continue my day with this pain distroying my day...*sigh*...

S.O.L# 18 Left hand hurting=Ruins the Day.

I woke up, feeling the horrible pain right beside my thumb. It was itchy and read, but I knew it would get worse if I itched it.
I took a shower(with one hand which was so hard), and went to moms room to put some healing cream on it called "Fucidin".
I carefully spreaded the cream beside my thumb, so that I dont touch the skin. Before I tell you more about how PAINFUL my left hand is, I've got to tell you something.


This isnt my first time getting this. I've got it in 2009, and when I was in sweden twice. I really dont know why, and what is causing this. Mom says its because of me being picky or me touching something dirty. Yes, I am picky, but I dont agree on touching something dirty. I always wash my hands when Im back from school and this cant be caused my THAT!! Im guessing...maybe of me being picky? ugh....I wish and actually want to stop being a picky child but its hard to stop it!!!I mean dont blame me for hating sea food and some korean food!!Honestly, my body isnt the type for "sea food"...No offence to anyone who likes sea food, but its just isnt my type AT ALL...Ok, enough explaining and back to the story...


I tried ignoring the pain in the way to school, but guess what? Its NOT easy!!!!!!!!I hate it so much when those effects happen in my body because it ruins my day totally. In Algbra, Computers, Geography, Spanish, Science, I felt the painful pain and the itchiness every second. I couldnt focus on anything but my fingers eager to itch it. But this is somthing totally, completely different from a mosqiuto bite. Mosquito bite wont really hurt so much when you touch it right? No it doesnt. But this! THIS! It hurts like crazy when you just slightly touch the skin!!!!!and what makes it worse is that it itches like, like....I just cant explain it in words but just know it hurts like you cant even imagine!
Thank God, school ended early because of the protesting thing. In the bus ride, my hand felt like someone had stabbed it with a knife and mosquito just came right after that and left tons of mosquito bites. Now get a feeling of how THAT would hurt? UH HUH!!!I know this stupid infection thing or for me being picky, WONT ever EVER stop coming to be and attaching my day. You should be lucky that you dont get such a painful infection in your hands near the thumb...ouchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh it HURTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!

S.O.L #17 A Busy Day...

Today was a short day, since it's Wednesday (my 2nd favorite day of the school days). I sat in the stairs in the elementary school, waiting for Mom to pick me up.I had to stay after school, since my sister, Minjeong--the one I tell you a lot about--ordered me to. Mom came in time, as we all went our friends house--Sarah, Yohana, and Susana.

They live close so It didnt take us more than 5 minutes. We met their mothers, who just came back from her work. She told my mom that she was bored, and wanted Mom to come in. I kknew Mom was tired, but to be polite, she said she would. I wasnt had couldnt go to the CCA Cristian thing only my sister because Mom wanted me to help her take care of the baby since she was tired. I couldnt refuse, but just do as I was told. But now Im here, kind of regretting I had come to this house to "play".

I saw Susana--who was on Sarahs bed--sleeping. Yohana was there, with Poppy(her white fur poodle) on her lap, and Sarah playing Guitar. But I saw a face I hadnt seem before. Her name was Kelly( I dont know if thats how you spell her name though...), she was Sarahs friend in CCA. I was quite glad to meet her. Her personality is nice, polite, not a raicist, loves korean food, and loves us:) We chatted in Sarahs room for a while and then decided to go to the living room to do their hw. I didnt have any hw, so I just watchen them talk, eat, talk, and then realize they are talking about something NOT part of the hw they had to do...I was bored, so I just sat on an arm chair, swinging back and forth, closing my eyes. I sat there, about 30 minutes I shall say, or was it more?

My stomach was begging for food, and that made me MORE grumpy...I realized they were off to their own world, leaving me out since I wasnt in the table "studying" with them. I got off the arm chair, and sat on the chair, and just found something to touch in the table: a small calendar.

"Yeji, are you ok? You seemed pissed off...Do you want something? Food? Whats wrong?" Sarah asked, FINALLY knowing there was A LOT wrong with me being bored out of my mind.

" No, Im fine, I dont want anything" I lied softly, not meeting her eyes. I WAS mad and I WAS bored and I AM still bored. Why cant she even know that from the first look at me? Isnt it soooooooo obvious that she didnt even offered me a snack which she did to Minjeong? I hadnt ate for 4 hours after school was over and I'd usually eat something. My mind was steaming and hot, I wished so badly to go home and make something to eat.

I saw Mom get up. I was releaved, as I rushed through the door, and went on the car. Mom soon came along, telling them Goodbye. I only waved my arms, honestly not wanting to say"bye" to them...Minjeong was still there, and I bet she didnt even know I was gone home. I told mom about how I felt and how hungry I was. I felt like crying, and Im sure mom noticed that after 2 seconds(she reads my mind really fast).

"Yeji, I'll part infront of the subway and you go inside and buy whatever you want to buy ok?" Mom said, trying her best to chear me up.

"Thank you!!!" I cried out. I ran to the subway as fast as my legs could bring me and you dont know what happened. Spanish just poured out of my mouth, with out me needing to pause to catch my breath. When I was done paying the waitress, I went back to where mom had parcked her car and opened my subway food that I had bought. I took a bite, and felt the warm bread, beef, tomatoe, cheese, cucumber, sauce melt down my throat. I felt like in heaven, and my mood changed immediately:) I was so thankful for a great mom who bought me this, and all the way to my apartment, I was eating this sandwhich, wondering what it would have been If I had to stay in Sarahs house...Starving I guess. I dont regret going home AT ALL:)

S.O.L #16 What Should I Write About?

A Tuesday...What does it mean to you? Your favorite day of the week, most boring day ever, or just a day? To me,Tuesday wont be so awsome but its at least better than Monday. Tuesday--which is close to wednesday--sometimes makes me wait, so that time go faster(which it doesnt apparently).

Im done with my homework, bored than ever. I've never knew that hw would entertain you in a way. Think about it, has it ever made you bored doing hw? I guess you guys might have thought it that way also. I mean some of you guys may say it HAS, but trust me. With homework that is already done, you get BORED and dont know what to do next!!!

I've went to fb and msn, but no one I wanted to talk to was online...(yes, I know it sucks....but dont rub it in please). I remember math homework was kinda hard but somehow I finished it. English hw? Well that was easy. Only S.O.L and read Raisin in the Sun page 36 and 37 and annotate it. I know I write this S.O.L boring because Im BORED!!!!I tried finding things to do, but they just seem lame and weird to me...

Here I am, writing my S.O.L since thats the only hw I have left. *sigh* Honestly I've never felt like this before. All the time, I hated hw and I still do. But its just that when I dont have hw, it just feels awkward...As if I didnt do them. I think I should end my S.O.L here, and just...just...um...find something to do!!!!

S.O.L # 15 Who I Really Hate

The person I hate isnt my friends nor my worst enemis. But an adult, a person in my bus. Tiffany, Alexis, Laura? No, not them. The who? Well, let me say the monitor. You might be laughing in your mind why I would hate such a person who doesnt barely talk to me. Im going to show how much and exactly WHY I hate her by this S.O.L. So here I go...

I was exhausted from playing basketball in P.E, as I walked tired to my bus. My bus- which is number 10- is mostly always in the middle of the big pile of buses. My bus came like the 3rd first, which was quite surprising.I said bye to my friends-Mari, Violeta, and Nysha. I saw the black windows, wondering if the monitor was in there to open the door. I waited 3 seconds, and finally just opened the door myself. There I saw, the monitor staring at me with those evil eyes, sitting really close to the door. Why didnt she just open it? What is her problem? I wanted so much to yell at her why she didnt, and she MUST since she is a monitor. I mean seriously, think about it. What do we do? We give HER money!!! And you call that a monitor when she doesnt even open the door ????

I walked to my usuall seat, waiting for someone to come. I stared at her right her eyes, strong and brave to not give in. She stood up (I felt the bus move a bit, no wonder shes corpulent) and then guess what she did? OPENED THE DOOR FOR AN 8TH GRADER!!!My mouth was just opened while I saw that, my eyes didnt even blink. Now wait a minutes... Is she just doing that to me???The answer quite seemed obvious to me. I remember the time when she didnt open the door for me like everyday. Why would that be? Racist? I think it is. My head just filled with millions of question crambed in my head.

I saw Tiffany come in, quite happy. I told her about what would happen. The I said, these are the things I would do tomorrow, (1) wait infront of the bus door until she opens it, (2) if she opens it thats good but IF she doesnt I would open the door myself, (3) I would ask her why she didnt open the door, (4) I believe she would go on babbling nonsence in spanish and I would say that I payed, (5) and then tell her to open the door next time. BUT....one problem...I better memorise the words Im going to say...*sigh...*

The journey to my house, seemed to go fast (thankfully), and more ideas kept on piling up in my brain:) I cant wait till tomorrow:p

S.O.L.#14 No Friends?Meaning Lonely All Life?

Have you ever thought about living in this world with no friends at all? I have. Its all, lonley, no support, no one to trust and you've got to deal with everything in your own. Thats why God made people, for them to make friends and enjoy there life.

Today, after church Minjeong and I went to Sarahs house to play. Sarah is the oldest sister in her family, and has two nice, very funny sisters-- Susana and Yohana. Sarah-- who is the oldest sister in the family-- has great talents such as music and always making someone crack up and laugh. Susana-- who is the 2nd daughter of the family--has a kind heart that will always melt your anger. Yohana--the 3rd daughter(the same age as me)--is a person who I usually like to have beside me so that she could always cheer me up when I face anger or sometimes problems. Their family, are blessed my God, believes everything is possible with Christ, have amazing music talent that you just watch them play an instrument with your mouth open. Not only that, but they are someone special to me, someone who pushed me closer to God.

We ate a little snack first, and decided to dance. I suck at dancing but Sarah told me to try so I thought I should take a go and try. We were looking for a song to dance a lot with, not after nearly 1 hour past, we gave up. Our stomach were all begging for food, so I said that I can make a food i usually eat when Im hungry and have nothing to eat. It only took 10 minutes to make because Susana helped me. My heart was nervous and prayed so hard so that they would like what I made. Sarah took a bite, and I waited paciently for an answer if it was good or bad.

"Whoa, this is sooooo good!!!!" She said joyfully. My heart felt lighter as if someone took the heavy stone away. Yohana and Susana thankfully liked it as well. We all enjoyed our small food and next thing you know it, their very nice mom makes us a korean food for us!!!! The food she made, made me feel like I was in the korea eating it with my friends. We were done eating and Minjeong suggested that she would help Sarah do her hard math problems. Now Im here, doing my S.O.L. in my friends house.

I think, what would it be to live alone in this harsh world with no friends or no family? It would be as if me against the dark world, facing it all by myself. I had an amazing , fantastic, incredible, awsome, excellent, unbelievable time ever. But what if I was all alone in this world with strangers and this wouldnt even happen? Nasty right? I believe that you can still live in this sinful earth without no job or no knowledge but never without friends or your family.

S.O.L#13 My dream? My Mayjor? 5 more years until college?

I walked into the church, after mom dropped Minjeong and I. It was saturday, but why do I go to church? My pastor, Justin- who is korean but spent his whole life in America and grew up there- wants up to meet at 2:30 every saturday so that we can meet God, and know deeper about him.

Most of the people were there, Susana, Yohana, The Twins( They are 8th graders), David(the one in high school in Balboa Academy), Shawn, Julia, and Bora's brother. We sat in a circle, and Justin began talking about something that made me really nervous and kind of frightening: Colledge. He asked each one of us, how many years we had till colldge. Some said 1 and a half, some said 3 months, some said 3 or 4. For me, It was 5 more years left, but that didnt mean I was not worring.

He also asked what our major was. My heart pound fast, wishing to run away from this conversation. I actually HAVE thought of my major before, but not yet decided wish. Medical, Dentist, Business....I dont know which to choose...

My dream when I was young was to be a dentist. The reason was (1) I earn alot of money, (2) I thought it would be fun to be one, (3) My mom wished for me to be a dentist. Now I think, Im I really going to be a dentist just because Mom wants me to? I've thought of this question alot, and found out, it wasnt. I've not decided yet what I want to be, but wants to be a nurse, or a designer or a actress.

I sat there, listening at all those precious word he was telling us. We all prayed for our future, our dreams. I pray for me to find my dreams by him, for him to show me what I have to be. But even though I would get a job, he is never going to leave me, nor from my heart.

I believe, someday, maybe in like a mission trip, like Justin said, I would find my dreams from God. Justin told us if we go there, our soul, our minds would be clean and a lot of people have find their real dream that God has want them to be. I trust him with all my heart, that someday, God will speak to me in my heart, for what he has decided me to d0 in this world for him.

S.O.L #12.Headache=Fever=Cold=SICK...

I came back exhausted from school, my head hurting really badly as if someone had punched it. Nothing seemed important to me, except taking a nap in my parents room. I would usually eat right after coming back from school, but today was different. I had a headache, my temperature was high, and I kept on feeling dizzy.

I took everystep to my moms room so that my head wont hurt like crazy. Mama wasnt here, and Minjeong was taking care of the baby. Today she was nice (thankfully), and took care of the baby while I was sleeping. The bed was confortable as ever, and my eyes felt hot, as if I cried. I remember in school, my head started hurting in spanish class. I burned nonstop. In science, I layed my head on my binder, looking to the wall, forcing down my boiling tears. I didnt want to show that I was a wimp to cry over these things. English felt like forever, and my headache started to get worse. My eyes felt super hot, my body shivered even though It wasnt cold for my friends. When I was in my tribe room, I was struggling wherethere to ask the teacher to go to the nurse, but I finally gave up, and decided I could handle this just for a bit more.

Now here I am, practically suffering and crying and crying, not embarrased to show my tears to anyone. When I woke up, Mom was lying down in her bed, Chloe playing with her. I told her about my day, and Mom told me it'd be alright. My stomach growled, knowing it was way past the time I had to have dinner. I made myself some food, and went to my room, walking gently.

I dont know why, but the weird thing is that whenever I walk fast or run, my head feels as if there is a niddle there but if I walk slowly nothing happens.

Friday is a very fun day; the end of school day of the week. But sometimes when these headache and fever block you way of enjoying your time, you go the opposite direction and end up having the most horrible Friday ever....