4 Things I'm Worried About

Worries...why do they have to ruin your day? I'm not saying everyday is a nightmare or anything, but teenagers suffer through a lot of stress. There are 4 things that bother me. FOUR BIG THINGS.

1) Which country I'll be going next

2) University

3) Crush

4) Studying

It's almost time for me to leave. I'm predicting I would leave Panama this year. But where? Hmmm... I honestly don't know. My dad wrote down two or three places in Europe and is just waiting for the result to come out. We've been waiting for MONTHS and yet, it is not announced. Whoever that takes care of these things really pisses me off...-__- Anyways, I really hope its somewhere good and a place where I can find my dream. I'm praying for it to be Sweden or Denmark. And yes, I've lived in Sweden before but who cares? It's an awesome country :) Usually, I won't really care where I go but this time I DO care. It's going to be my last country that I would live with my parents and I want to make wonderful memories that would remain in my heart forever.

University. I'm probably sure those who are reading this would think, "Why would you think about this when you're only an 8th grader? Isn't it too early?" My answer : No. I think the more you are prepared, the higher chance you will succeed. But the most important thing is, what are you going to be? You need to have a dream to study harder. I'm afraid to tell you, I don't know what my dream is. People go for the things they are best at or things they enjoy but I really don't know what I'm best at. Anyways, I hope God shows me the road I should pick for my future(:

Now the third thing. Crush, one that a lot of people struggle through. To tell you the truth, I fear of loving a person too much and end up being hurt. The sentence keep spinning around my head. "What if he doesn't like me?" It's stupid to like a person that doesn't like you back. But in the other hand, its hard to stop liking that person. I've said to myself that I would not like anyone because, like I said before, I fear that I would be heartbroken. When the guy has the same feelings for you, it was worth taking the risk. But if he doesn't, you would be drowning in your own tears. So basically it is, would you risk it or would you not? For me it's harder than solving a math problem. So what I'll do is follow my heart. And I'll just wait. If the person comes back to me, it is mine, but if it doesn't, we were not meant to be.

I'll stop from here since I'm getting quite tired typing all this. But surprisingly I feel better and my heart feels lighter than before :)

Thanks for reading(:

An Incomplete Puzzle

Ugh...

I'm was so stressed because of my older sister, Minjeong. I can handle insults once in a while, but not everyday. Whenever I pass by my sister, she's just so pissed and "whispers" some derogatory comments loud enough so that I can hear. She claims she is whispering, saying that she wasn't talking to me, but I can tell by her face that she is lying. I mean, if she has a problem, come tell me in front of my face, not "whisper" all the time or hit me all of a sudden. I ABHOR it when people just get mad at me when I was just standing there, doing NOTHING. Honestly, why do they have to be mad at an innocent person ruining his/her day? Unfair. So unfair.

Here, this is what I think about big sisters:

1) They can insult their little sisters/brothers whenever, wherever.

2) They can hit them whenever, wherever.

3) They say what they want to say without really thinking.

4) No patience.

5) Gets so pissed when little sister/brother says something mean to them.

6) Does not try to listen to listen to little sister/brother's feelings.

OK, this is all I can think of, but there is a whole lot I haven't wrote.

So yea, basically, all I wanted to say is how hard it is to understand my sister...It's like this puzzle I cannot put back, a puzzle that would take me ages to finish. But someday, I hope I can complete the puzzle, and understand my sister's feelings , as our relationship draws closer.

Bored of Being Bored Because Being Bored is Boring

It was 11:08 when I woke up. My parents were gone somewhere with my two younger sisters. The house felt unusually quiet, which scared me a little. Minjeong, my older sister, was still sleeping. I took a shower and got myself some breakfast. I watched this hilarious drama while I was eating. After 30 minutes, Minjeong screamed at me to study. I've never understood, but why does SHE care? I know she cares about me ,but, sometimes, it's really annoying being ordered or by your sister. I had this sudden urge to shout back, but I decided not to.

If you want to know the truth, I REALLY didn't feel like studying at all. I wanted to play but I couldn't. My parents weren't here to drop me off to multiplaza or anywhere. Last week, I read this amazing book called, The Last Child by John Hart. This book kept me away from boredom. But after I finished the book, I was soooooo bored. I tried so hard to find some interesting book like this one, but unfortunately, there wasn't any in my house. We use to have a lot of good books, but I dont know what happened to them. After searching for a book, I found The Forgotten Garden by Kate Morton. The first chapter was pretty interesting but the rest was very confusing and boring.

I put the book aside, and just sat on my chair, searching for something useful to do. And the idea struck me :Travel Journal. I honestly wasn't really bothered to do this, but I was VERY BORED. I didn't want to use my head solving math problems or memorizing vocab words, so I decided I should just do my travel Journal. It took me exactly 20 minutes to finish.

So yea... I better finish it here :)

Thanks for reading;)

P.S= Sorry for writing it so boring... Apparently, I'm not that good at writing things when I'm bored :P