S.O.L # 31 Best Day:)

Went to the movies

We watched The Book of Eli

Fighting was scary

But Eli went brave and tough

I guess I'm not bored today!!!

S.O.L # 30 Worries...

Today, as you guys know is ....Tuesday. Yeah yeah, you guys must love Tuesdays, and I would too, if only there wasnt a bunch of worry in me.

Tomorrow, in our church the youth group(including Minjeong and I) were going to the movies to watch The Book of Eli at 4:00 in multiplaza. I really so much want to go but I'm not so sure because I dont think my mom would let me and stuff. Plus! Sarah wants a party in her house right after the movie and that I'm 10% sure if I could go or not...You might wonder why I want to go to the movies so much and go to Sarahs party, but thats just because I dont want another boring day ahead of me. I mean won't you feel like that as well? Being outside with your friends is WAY better than being stuck up in your house, nothing to do.

So yea, thats about it with my worry. I know I'd be the most unhappiest person on earth If my mom doesnt allow me to go to the movies. Seriously I really would. I'm guessing the only way to make it come true is ask God to help me and just hope it would come true!!!

S.O.L # 29 How to Train Your Dragon

I still remember the movie Sarah, Susana, Yohana, Minjeong and I watched yesturday. It was called, How to Train Your Dragon. Well today I decided to watch it again in the internet in english.

Some people who HAVE watched this already, would know what I'm talking about. And people who HAVENT watched this, well I recomend you to watch it some day. Dont ask me why because this isnt no movie that would just waste your time If you see the dragon names "Toothless" (God, I love that name for some reason:P Sooooo funny) you would obviously say "awwww".

When I was done downloading the movie into my dads computer, I began to watch it. It was obviously more easy to understand and my favorite part was when the black dragon and the boy was together. I remeber I cried in the movie theater at the very last part when he lost one of his foot. The movie ended very soon, which it did kinda feel weird because it didnt in the movie theater.

In my opinion, I really think this movie should have earned a ton of money and really it deserves it. I'm not the person who would cry over for a dragon and all those comic stuff but THIS is different. It really surprised me that it was well shown and once again, I loved the dragon sooooo much!!! Now I think of it, what would happen if all of us had a dragon as a pet? Difficult I guess but still the wish of having a dragon pet like this one expecially, never leaves my heart<3

S.O.L # 28 I've Changed My Mind

We arrived in Sarah--the girl with 2 younger sisters who goes to our church--decided to play with us today after church finished.

We began playing volleyball(which I sucked at), but tried my best to do good. The weird thing is that when we did a mistake, they laughed their butt off. Weird huh? But of course I laughed along as well because their laughter really makes me laugh as well. Susana--the 2nd daughter , about 2 years older than me-- started tearing up because of all those laughs.

The ordered food arrived, and we finished it in about 15 minutes. Fast eh? Well that was how much we were hungry I guess:P Sarah asked me why I didnt show her my wound hand last time, and said that really hurt her feelings. I told her I didnt want people looking it with disgust, and that It wasnt a pretty sight. Thats what started our conversation. We began talking about me and Minjeong's relationship, how offten we fight. Tears just rolled down my cheeks, of all those swears and stress I had for Minjeong. Minjeong--who was in the conversation as well--looked at me with weird eyes and just went out the room. Sarah and I kept talking, of how I should try to respect her and how she is also stress. Now that I think about it, I guess she really would have been. With those sisters nagging her, taking care of Chloe, and all the colladge studies...

Now Im home, thinking of what I did to Minjeong...I realize I hadnt done good to her so much and how much she needed respect. It weird me saying this, but I havent been a nice sister all these years...I've changed my mind. I would respect my sister and never talk to her back from now on!!!!

S.O.L #27 What a Day...

Today as usual, I went to korean school...Nothing really happened, but me just struggling with hard math problems and trying to catch up with the difficult korean worlds pouring out of the teacher's mouth. Yes, not the perfect day to rest or do anything...Can't I just fly out of this place and go somewhere where my stress just wash away? Cant I be someone who could at least rest in Satudays? It just felt as if there was someone controling me where ever I go like a kids motor car.

Yohana--the girl I told you that goes in my church and is the same class as me in korean school--had to come to my house since her mom couldnt pick her up since she was busy. We road the dirty yellow bus, one earphone on my ear, the other on hers. Music SHOULD calm down how I feel today, but I guess that just was impossible. Kids crying, shouting, yelling, fighting, laughing, fills the whole bus, their voice distracts me from listen to my music. Yohana, Yunjeong(my 3 year old sister) and I was the first one to get out, thankfully everything was peaceful at last...No more yelling nor screaming, just us and the warm air welcoming us.

We stepped inside the loby, up to 2nd floor where I live. Minjeong--my older sister, who does the most nastiest stuff--was the first to great Yohana. I let them play together, knowing Yohana would play along well with Minjeong...Weird right? Yohana, the girl in my house, mignt be the same age as me, but loves to play with my sister Minjeong, who is 3 more years older than her. They both went in Minjeongs room, and me...? Well, guess I just gotta deal with it. I lie in my bed, my eye lid feeling as if it got heavier than yesturday. My body immediately reliaxed, my flower white blanket, softer that it was. Time flies without me noticing....

"Yeji!!!You coming to the gim with us?" Yohana asked waking me up. I rubbed my eyes, the bright sun made my eyes harder to open.

"Sure" I said, putting on my sweater as I went to the living room to put my flip flop on. We all went down to the gim--Minjeong, Yohana,and me. We didnt do much. Just excersice, dance...And me getting insulted again by my sister. I got blamed for not putting the air on, I got insulted for talking to Yohana, I got sweared because I came along with them, I got insulted by doing the dance wrong. I mean, seriously, can everyone be perfect? Can they? Cant the people just try at least one thing new? Do you have to get insulted every 10 seconds for doing a little thing that really isnt a big thing? Do you?

I decided to excersice myself, not with Yohana, nor with Minjeong. I lied down on the sofa in the gim, being ignored as if I didnt exist in this world. Soon Yohana got to leave, she said bye, and I waved my hands...Now I think, what a day with insults, stress, blame, and being totally ignored by my "friend". Even though Yohana is my "friend" , I've never seen her talk to my sister so much and practially ignore me when I'm infront of her.

I wish so hard to cry, to yell like the kids in my korean school bus, to be the naughties human on earth. I wish so hard to tell them how I feel, to be strong to stand up for myself. But I've lost the chance. Grandma once said, time never goes back, never would it even with magic. Here I am, looking out the window, the sky looks grey today even though it didnt rain. Is it my mind thats grey? Or is it just that my regrets ruined my saturday? Tell me, what is it?

S.O.L #26 It Feels Like Yesturday

Everything looks like yesturday. The day when you came up to me, helping me through Balboa Academy. The day when you would sit next to me in wolf room, both sharing our days with worries and news. I drop my hard bag on the dirty rug. The normal place where you sit, gets my attention, looks empty as ever just like it was in my heart when you told me you had to leave.

Ashini, are you in Denmark meeting new friends? Is your life over the rainbow singing songs? Or is your life under the sea, surrounded my darkness, unknown faces, problems you got to face all your self? Im here, waiting for you to come, but time never goes back does it? You're laughter, your voice, which always cheered me up, and always made me feel stronger, is no more there... The bellrings, but yet you're still not here. The day you would always be walking next to me, the day you would always tell me your problems while we walk up the stairs, isnt there anymore. New friends replace your spot, and you...Well to them you might be a hidden treasure. But I've found it. The treasure, the present God had sent me. You, the treasure, the gold, is part of my life, filled with precious memories that hasnt yet excaped from our heart.

Lunch time comes, but yet you're not there. Ashini, are you in your new school, with marvolous friends doing the same thing you've done to me? All those sharing, all those jokes? Or are you sitting there in the cold seat, staring at your friends, thinking they're nothing but back stabers?

You-- Who was my sheild--protected me all this time. You, the only friend I had, still keep in touch by emails.

School ends, but yet you're still not there. Is the future still telling me you're never going to come back? Is my friends telling me to that you got to get over with it? Is the wind whispering in my ear that you are miles seperated from me? Your laughter, your smile, your jokes, its still not here Ashini. Are you really gone forever?

The sky is blue like I saw in Sweden when I went to the park, a fine day to play. I come home from school, Mom hands me an envelope. No envelope ever comes to me, never since I was little. I open it, and just share and share at the red card. A card from Ashini? I brush through the words you wrote, tears just running down my cheeks like a fountain not locked tightly, waiting for you Ashini, to come lock it. Ashini--my best friend, who promise me that we would always be friend no matter how old we get--is in Denmark, but yet our bound that is so tight and impossible to cut, is still there, waiting for some day, maybe when we are old, to find each other.

S.O.L # 25 What Are Friends?

Have you truly thought of the word friends? Is a friend who you can just chat with and make you company? Is that the friend you always thought it was? Tell me, was it? Or is it someone who just makes you seem cool because you have a lot of friends? Tell me which one is it? I'd say none of them. They arent even called your friends, but more like a stranger to you.

Nobody here has a perfect friend because no one is perfect!!! Doesnt some of your closest friends expecially have some parts you dont like? But does that mean you have you insult them and gossip and make bad rumors about them? For me, yes not every friend is perfect and I do have some parts I dont like about them. But I realized that sometimes, you got to understand them because they dont have to same personalities as you and they arent the same like you are!!!

And sometimes, your friends end up like enemies and sometimes your enemies turn into one of your best friend. I guess thats how it is. Friends, enemies...I better stop here for today:)

S.O.L # 24 Should I?

Have you ever did something and regret it, like a lot? Im guessing everyone has at least once in their life. Well for me, there is something I do regret. I joined Girl Scouts a few months ago because Tiffany--my friend who goes to girl scout--told me all about it and siad how much fun it was. And yes, I really wanted to join. So here I am in Girl Scout, eager to get out of this thing.


Why? Well, its not like its SO important and I really dont like to stay after school. I mean, it isnt so boring but I guess I can use my time studying or in my house taking a nap rather than going to girls scout. In my opinion, the Girl Scout in one words are just going camping and all those stuff. I regret so much for joining and have ALREADY paid...dang it...Should I tell the teacher I want to quit? Do I have that much courage? What if she says I have to wait 1 more year to end this boring girl scouts? ...Question just keep coming up to me, really stressing me out.


I had girl scout today, and Im REALLY exhausted...Should I tell the teacher? Should I?

S.O.L# 23 Life Says Obsticles Are There For You to Learn

Sometimes there is time when you want to cry, when you want to run away from your worries, when you just dont want to be on earth. Worries, sadness, education, stress, insults, friends, just everything is on your shoulder, pushing you down, making you harder to move on with your life. For me, well let me say everything really does bother me.

Education? Yea, I hated it since I touched a pencil for the first time of my life. Collage, studying math and english harder, S.A.T, everything...I just want to run away somewhere no one would find me and forget about those things...Havent you felt like that before? Im in 7th grade, 5 more years till colledge. I can literally feel the sress piling up in my head.

Insults? Friends? It had bothered me a whole bunch, mostly about friends but oh well, I guess I got to use to that. But that doesnt mean I am TOTALLY fine with it...I've got times when you just dont understand your friend and if they actually ARE your friend. Insults, to me is something I hate the most. Insults come from gossip, and gossip comes from people and it just starts stressing in the spead of light. Thats how life is. Obstacles, dealing with it, obstacles, and more and more you have to face. But later you learn, you atone your punishment, your sin, everything.

Yes, of coures this is a very weird S.O.L you've ever heard, but cant I just pour out my stress in this sol? Cant I just make my stuffed heart empty by telling you guys this? Cant I? Every parent are always like "Education education education....study study study work work" People, just leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!!Sometimes, I just want someone, maybe a fairy, to give me 3 wishes. I dont believe in fairies and never did, but today, I wish it did. I would say my 3 wishes, and one of them would defenetely be about education, trust me it would!

S.O.L 22 A Friend Whose Going to Leave Soon...:(

I've always had to meet new friends, and leave friends ll my life. Yes, its sad I know...Since I move to countries alot mostly always after 3 years, I can never have a friend who I can talk to all the time...Ashini, remember her? Ashini--the quiet girl who has a pure heart--was my best friend, but left her old self in Panama and went to a far country, Denmark. Yes, I still talk to her;sometimes in phone, fb and in emails.

But...but...someone, who has been my friend since 6th grade and has always been there for me and entertained me whenever I was bored, said she was leaving in 3 months, saying she wouldnt ever be back after the break...Her name, is called....is.....is...Nysha...Would the misery start after shes gone? Would I feel like the worlds empty without her? Everything looks black, like the time when Ashini said she was leaving to Denmark forever. Even though, I had to leave my friends, that doesnt mean it was easy.

Who would leave next? Luciana? Mari? Who? Friends who leave, friends who stay, friends who I havent seen in ages, would still, and always would be in my memories, no matter what happens.